all yours

I take out my heart and crush it for you
I am not gone, I just want you and you alone.

an hour nor a lifetime
no lifeline is enough

and was it gravity or a vacuum,
the emptiness of everything else,
that pulled us tight as frightened animals

my memory has your rich imprint
like red wine on my lips
your stain on my thoughts is thick

each strand of hair
the tone of your skin
the touch of your hand
the angle at which your eyes glance down
every willing cell of your life in which I could drown

but it wouldn't be right
or maybe
just one more night

write...

here I am again
and only to find
a full heart spilling for someone else's mind

you.
on a leash
I will teach you
the consequences
understudy
sub
child
I could only hurt you
because I know you want me to

for others
I bend
I break and I'm broken
I follow
the rules on which I gag

but to you
I am ring master
the one who cracks
the whip
so bow at my ankle
low
and know, your place
is here

I am cold, cold, cold, I am
are you still there?
do you hear me from this channel?

I twist and burn in death defying battle
to be as good as you
but tongue and thought fail me
weary age jades me
and cowardice in the face of death
is all that pulls me through

I am here
I swear
at the tip of your finger is mine

I just fall
asleep

oh there you are
yes
a promise
x

it is never wrong; a thing which you thought once right, cannot just turn - but laying slow and dormant maybe.
even so there still is breath, and the slightest pulse that quickens at your touch, so do not render us passed on.
black threads of hair remind me of your steps, when you walked, and where - tiny cells, your gravity, the elements of what you are.

never is still a relationship, a promise of the future, never is not no, but a strand of decision that goes on forever.

do not sadden or think I drift elsewhere, I am tangled in you more than ever.

the only harm is if you leave
you cannot harm me by being
you cannot harm me
but I am afraid I can harm you